I did it. I can't believe it...I always said I'd save myself for marriage, but I 
didn't. I couldn't even do that. Why? It felt so good...no, no, I can't think 
about that. I can't think about the way she kissed me, the way she-- 

No. It's bad enough I did that outside of marriage, but with another woman...what 
am I going to do? There's not much I can do. I've sinned horribly, but...was it a 
sin really? It was so-- 

Of course it was, we weren't married...how can we be? There's nobody here who 
could do that here that I saw. But maybe that pact she mentioned, maybe...no. 
It's not a marriage. She doesn't even know what marriage *is.* I could teach her, 
I suppose, but can we do that? Even if we had a preacher, would it really be 
marriage? And I don't love her...it'd be a mockery. I can't do that, I won't do 
that. 

...I guess there's nothing I can do. I'm lost. But if I'm Hellbound for certain, 
then there's no harm in-- 

No, it's not certain, there may be something I can still do. There has to be, all 
sins can be forgiven. 

...I hope.